The Sinful Woman
Coming Undone at the Feet of Jesus
Read Luke 7:36-50.
As I think back to this time about a year ago, I see a lot of heartache, a lot of pain, and a lot of confusion.
I see darkness.
I see hopelessness.
Like the woman in Luke 7:36-50, I found myself in a place of solitude and isolation; seemingly having no way of escape.
Granted, my entrapment was not due to the same sin as this nameless woman, but it was caused by sin nonetheless.
It was caused by worry, self-fulfillment, vain striving, and a forgetfulness of who God was in my life.
I sat sulking instead of still.
I worried rather than worshiped.
I strove for satisfaction rather than sanctification.
I was, and most certainly still am, a sinful woman.
However, when I think back on that time, another memory stands out in my mind as well; one filled with hopeful tears and joyful anticipation.
It was a Sunday afternoon and God suddenly became real to me.
The vitality of His presence shook me to my core.
I fell at His feet, completely undone by the love and goodness He so readily demonstrated to me that Sunday afternoon.
This passage – often read, considered, maybe studied from time to time, but in the end always skimmed over, is one that I believe offers a lot of insight for the lives of women.
The example set by this woman trapped in a sinful lifestyle but undone by the love of her Father is one that should not be quickly overlooked.
Consider a sin that you have been stuck in for a long time.
Think about the times that you’ve tried to step away, successful for a period of time but never failing to fall back into its defeating rhythm.
Now consider this sinful woman.
She was trapped in the sin of prostitution. That is all we know. We don’t know how or why she found her way into this lifestyle.
Perhaps she was forced.
Perhaps it was out of fear that she’d be left alone.
Perhaps this was her livelihood; her only means of survival.
We simply do not know.
All we know is that she was a sinful woman who was not welcome.
Do you feel unwelcomed because of your sin?
Do you feel as if your sin is painted on your forehead for everyone to see?
Perhaps this is a sin that you can’t even pinpoint the beginning of – it’s just always been a part of your life.
Perhaps there are emotional motivators behind this sin; motivators like fear, anxiety, or depression.
Perhaps this sin is your way of survival; the only way to protect yourself.
I don’t know, but believe me when I say – God knows.
He knows the depths of your sin just like He knew the depths of the sin this woman had committed.
Yet He loved her all the same.
In fact, He, being the only one who truly knew what she had done, loved her deeper, harder, and longer than anyone ever had.
And that was enough!
That was enough to completely undo this woman, and it is enough to completely undo you as well.
That same God who loved this sinful woman loves you in all of your sin.
Let that settle for a moment.
It wasn’t until this woman realized the magnitude of God’s love for her that she fell – broken, emptied, defeated, and undone at the feet of Jesus.
Those exact qualities; those qualities of being poor in spirit are beautiful examples of a woman desperate for her King.
Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. – Matthew 5:3
To be completely undone by the greatness of Jesus Christ is a quality that escapes most of us. We are constantly striving to have it all together; to play it cool and be steady under pressure.
This woman was experiencing tremendous pressure under the weight of her sin, yet day in and day out she maintained.
Are you maintaining right now?
Are you fighting with every ounce of your being to play it cool under the weight of your sin?
Take this sinful woman’s example – fall at the feet of Jesus, undone by the love and acceptance He longs to give you.
When you find yourself face down at the feet of Jesus – broken, emptied, defeated, and completely undone by all that He is, the very essence of God will rush in like a crashing wave and fill every void space with a sweet sense of abandon; a vivacity that can cause a prostitute to fall before a man and wash his feet with her tears, hair, and expensive oils.
I experienced this kind of undoing that Sunday afternoon a year ago.
I had been striving so hard to be everything I could; to adjust to my new life out of college with grace and independence and work hard while remaining humble.
But the loneliness and depression hindered my ability to experience the overwhelming peace and assurance of Jesus Christ, so I maintained.
I woke up every morning under the weight of my worry, anxiety, and self-sufficiency with little to no change that very same night as I crawled back into bed.
The moment I realized it though; the moment that the goodness of God Almighty became real to me was the moment I was completely undone by His love and acceptance.
It was a moment of absolute abandon; of worshiping God through tears of surrender.
Sister – come undone.
It’s okay to not be okay.
Cry, take a load off, and fall at His feet.
Your tears are prayer too – Romans 8:26 – so go ahead and cry.
Sometimes it’s our tears that bless and glorify Christ the most.
There is no power, no height, nor depth, nor anything in all of creation that can separate you from the love of God (Romans 8:38-39) so you have nothing to fear; nothing to lose.
You are held secure in His loving and gentle hands.
He already knows, so empty yourself and allow Jesus to gently take your face in His hands and say – “Your faith my daughter, has saved you. Now go in peace” (Luke 7:50).
Come undone today and watch as Jesus takes your brokenness and builds from those pieces a woman who has been set free!